Reciprocation

It's almost always evil.  You know you're in  too deep when five meaningless hours without contact seem like a lifetime.  When a day goes by and you feel like it's been an eternity since you've looked into those eyes or smelled that sweet smell.  It's like, your heart feels something different... something you don't really want, but you don't know how to get rid of.  It feels like it's bleeding from the inside out.  The worst part is feeling alone in it all.   How do you explain that to someone?  You can't.  That's how you know it isn't reciprocated.  It's when you have doubt that you need to distance yourself before it's -really- too late, because once you're in... you're in.  It's difficult to get out of.

You're in too deep when their voice is all that calms you and when all you can smell is their scent on the tip of your nose and you desperately don't want it to go away.  It's when their heartbeat seemingly beats in sync with your own that you want to believe this is real and that it isn't going anywhere, but who really knows that?  Who really knows what is a lie and what isn't?  What matters and what doesn't?  It's just something we all want.  We all want that person we can feel so connected to; so in love with.  But it's rare.  It never happens anymore.  And when it does, no one holds on to it.  No one cherishes it.  No one reciprocates.